isi hati y ta terluah mybe.....

                                                                                             



hai idop kenape la hard sgt eh....hurm dont be so harsh to me please...aku bukan ta redho dengan ape yang aku ade n ape yang aku dpt,,,tp tahla..kadg2 it is not enough for me..I love what i have but to be honest i do want more..i do want to be a nice person with a jilbab (hijab)...i do want to be repected by other becoz of my knowledge about islam...not for what i have achieve in duniawi...i also want to be the person that people looking at not becoz of just my body..see me through my heart..i know my behaviour is not parallel with what i want in my life..my lifestyle is not really good actually..im a bit social..and i dont even care..atleast i look like i never care about it..but deep in my heart no one know what does i feel...i feel to  change to be more nice..but that all take a lot of time..and to do all that i have to be soncere and i am the one who is wanted to be like that not becoz of other person..im not transform to make people praise me....i wat to change becoz of ALLAH..and god willing the time will come sooner or later..dont judge me trough my lifestyle and my cloth...guide me dont shut..do make me feel the best of it....shitt what nonsence  talk in this blog.....arrrggghhhh..so speechless no one can hear me...